Lost and found

Yesterday I discovered that I lost Richard
I lost that edge
And I couldn't find him
where was my darkness?
the evil part of me that i kept away
is it gone?
at 1st i was glad,
then distressed...
How can I act without my darkness?
Without the Xfactor that made Richard, well, Richard?
And to make things worse,
she's avoiding me

So today, I made my darkness
It wasn't enough
Its not fully Richard
Its a fake, a cake
The cake is a lie
yes, yes it is
and YOU cannot fake evil
Evil is real
and in love there is no evil
I lost my evil
And now i'm afraid of losing my love